They love us for our art;
But only our success do they see.
To them we shine like stars;
Because we make them believe.
But the years below the surface;
When we hung on for dear life;
When dreams ruthlessly shattered;
Everyday was a torturous fight.
Why do we hold on?
Why do we not give up?
Why do we not listen to Dad and Mom?
Why do we not grow up?
Because we must piece together the shattered vase…
Because our dreams must not die…
Therefore our pride, we throw away…
Because we refuse to be dead inside…
– For all the Artists out there fighting for their dreams everyday
This poem was inspired by “La La Land” directed by Damien Chazelle. What a beautiful film, and something that all actors, and artists could relate to. I wish to continue to have the courage to be in my chosen field of work, no matter how hard it gets.
For as long as I can remember, films have had a special place in my heart. There was always something awe-inspiring about going to the movie theater, sitting down in a seat in the center of the row, and letting the big screen mesmerize me as it captured my full attention. Nothing could ever replace the magic and inspiration I felt when I watched good films. One of my favorite pastimes is to watch films in the theater by myself. I would say, the big screen and I have always had a special relationship.
As the years passed, I found myself desiring a change more and more. I no longer wanted to be just a consumer of films. I wanted to be a maker of films. For a long time, I dreamed of having my own film studio. I just didn’t know how to get there, because back then I thought that the only way to do this was to have a lot of financial resources.
Thankfully, I know now that that is not true. Especially with today’s technology, I learned that I did not need a lot of money to make my dreams a reality. However, what I did need were drive, determination, and uncompromising passion to make it happen. Most importantly, I had to take action, no matter how scary it was… I had to be willing to fail and throw away my pride for my chosen journey.
And that is ultimately what this is… a journey. It is not about success. It is not about proving a point to anyone either. It is about the walk, or the jog, and breathing in the crisp air from the pine trees that say hello as I pass by them on the trail of my chosen career.
So this year, I decided to finally launch my own film studio so I could make films… and made films, I did.
And tonight, on this beautiful, snowy Christmas Eve, I wish to show you the official intro logo of my Film Studio EISSEJ Films. This was a labor of love by two designers who turned my vision into reality. I am extremely proud of what they did. I hope you like it as much as we loved making it.
I am grateful that I got to team up once again with prolific Alaskan filmmaker Charles Baird to bring his short film “The Hunger” to life. This was an ambitious project that we made in four days for the 2016 Anchorage Quick Freeze Film Competition. This project marks my second time as a Producer on a narrative short film, and another one of many projects for Charles as the Executive Producer. Here’s our Movie Poster:
Written, Directed, and Edited by Charles Baird, and featuring Cinematography talent of Levi Nilsson, this short film gives a quick glimpse into the secretive life of a lawyer whose hunger for lust is never satisfied.
I was so blessed that I got to work with a group of dedicated cast and crew whose passion for film-making was awe-inspiring. Thank you so much to the following people who made this film possible: Levi Nilsson (D.P.), Carl Weber (Assistant Cameraman & Sound), De Gosh Reed (Gaffer), Laura A. Hoosier (Script Supervisor), Greg Rowland (Clive), Katie Wilson (Ashley), Ida Taylor (Cherry), and Mariah Falkenstein (Nancy), and of course Charles Baird (E.P. & Director & Writer & Editor) for giving me this opportunity to stretch my wings as a Film Producer.
I am proud to announce that this film is now complete and will be premiering at the Quick Freeze Film Competition Screening and Awards event on Thursday December 8th, 2016 at 10:30 PM at the Bear Tooth Theatrepub (1230 W 27th Ave, Anchorage, Alaska), alongside 19 other films made by talented Alaskan filmmakers.